Dear readers, as a French Christian from the Province of
Quebec, Canada,
this is my first
article with
Rapture Ready—except
from a poem I
wrote in English
published in the
Soap Box III as
a first try, as
I write them in
French. What I
want to share
with you isn’t
easy for me and
I realize that I
might take the
risk of being
criticized. But
having been
saved at the age
of nineteen, now
being
fifty-eight
years old, I’ve
been exposed to
a lot of
Christian
environments,
different
beliefs and I’m
grateful to
Christ for
helping me to
have a good
basic knowledge
of his Word and
enough
discernment to
be protected
from a lot of
falsehood.
I feel led to share what is a seriously misunderstood
illness by too
many people and
more so, among
true believers
saved by the
precious grace
of the Lord. I
will take a tone
of confidence in
this article
because I see a
need to discuss,
depression. I
will tell you my
story only
hoping to
encourage you
and help, if I
can.
I was born almost dying and spent my childhood in hospitals
fighting for my
life. I then
lived in a very
dysfunctional
home. I can’t
remember living
without being in
real turmoil,
loneliness, fear
and despair, and
sickness was
worsening my
situation. For a
long time, I’ve
read books to
understand the
purpose of my
existence and
how to overcome
so much physical
and emotional
pain. It took me
long years of
searching before
the Lord used my
brother to let
me know that I
was a sinner in
need to receive
God’s
forgiveness and
receive Him as
my Lord and
Savior.
I resisted God’s call for quite a while but I realized I
couldn’t go any
further than
myself. I gave
Him my entire
life and I knew
from that point
on that I was
His child for
eternity. I’ve
been persecuted
for my faith but
I told myself
that it wasn’t
me they were
attacking but
the Lord
Himself... and
He forewarned us
that it would
happen. Christ
turned my life
around and his
joy became mine.
I still remained
sick and at risk
of dying, I
fought again for
my life. I then
moved to the
Canadian
Maritimes to go
to university. I
wanted to study
translation in
order to get
English
Christian books
translated into
French books.
I met my husband there and we were together for twenty-seven
years
ministering for
the Lord in many
ways, but our
relationship
failed. After
taking Christian
counseling, we
had no choice
but to part (but
on good terms).
Over those years
my health
continued to be
at risk. After
countless severe
illnesses, I was
diagnosed with
fibromyalgia and
dysthymia. O my,
I couldn’t
believe it! It
came as a shock
but there
finally was a
name to so many
things I was
suffering from.
I’ve inherited
depression from
my parents and
fibromyalgia.
Dysthymia is a chronic mild form of depression that can get
more severe
depending on
different
triggers. I’ve
never abandoned
the Lord because
of all the very
painful events
of my life. What
I want you to
know is that
being accused of
lacking faith,
sinning, not
reading the
Bible enough or
misunderstanding
it—those
were some of the
hurtful
accusations
thrown at me for
being so ill. I
was told my
relationship
with the Lord
wasn’t right,
that I just had
to fully go back
to Him, that I
was causing my
own problems and
that I didn’t
stand on His
promises. To
this day, I’m
being
misunderstood
and sometimes
shunned by
people,
including
“Christians.”
I don’t expect understanding from someone who hasn’t gone
through
depression. I’ve
been abandoned,
rejected,
criticized and
my own family
has no clue as
to what I’ve
been
experiencing.
What is very
important to
realize is that
the Lord is
totally
unconditional in
His love for me
or you; He
created me the
way I am and
even though I
sometimes feel
ashamed of
suffering from
depression
because I’m
occasionally
shunned, God
isn’t bound by
anything or
anyone and He
uses every child
of His to
accomplish His
purposes. All
the protagonists
of the Bible
were just human
beings and they
too, suffered
physical and
mental
disorders.
Over the centuries many great men and women of God have
accomplished so
much for the
Lord. We are
weak vessels
that must remain
empty and
available for
Christ to fill
according to His
will. Our part
is to let go and
let God. I
continue to
struggle in just
about every way,
every day of my
life and at
times I feel
empty, abandoned
by the Lord and
in distress. Of
course those are
emotions that
don’t reflect
the truth. I
must fight the
enemy and all
those who are
quick to judge
me. I keep
battling but not
on my own...
Jesus is in me
and He is
sustaining my
life.
He understands me better than I understand myself. I’ve
learned that
turning to saved
ones who battle
depression like
me is a terrific
way to grow as a
person and in
the Lord.
Regardless of
the cause of the
depression, it
is necessary to
get medical help
and therapy, If
we need doctors
for our body,
the same is true
for mental
issues. We can’t
divide them. The
body, mind and
soul are
intertwined.
Remaining close
to my Savior and
surrounding
myself with good
and positive
persons brings
relief to my
heart and
emotions.
My purpose is to give you hope and tools to fight
misunderstood
illnesses.
Whether you get
healed or not,
you aren’t alone
in your
spiritual walk.
Jesus loves you
as much as he
does His Father!
Isn’t that
wonderful? Don’t
allow anyone to
abuse and hurt
you. Ignorance
is hard to
overcome but the
Lord is with you
as well as your
loved ones and
your friends. If
some want to let
you go, tell
yourself that
they aren’t
worthy of you.
If you have
difficulty
relating to
God’s love
because you
haven’t been
loved properly,
don’t accuse
yourself.
He fully understands where you’re coming from. He came for
those who need
Him. I love
reading the
Psalms. David
really suffered
and was sick at
times so I kind
of relate to
him. Brethren,
set aside your
differences as
saved ones and
learn to accept
each other.
We are called to
love one
another. It’s an
act of the will
and we fulfill
God’s call as we
do so. Showing
affection,
tenderness,
giving hugs,
granting
compassion,
sympathy,
understanding
and empathy all
lead to healing.
God has emotions too. Beloved, you aren’t alone in this
battle. If so
many Christians
don’t talk about
their painful
realities, it’s
because they are
afraid to be
marginalized.
Open up your
heart with safe
persons and you
will know what
it’s like to
still feel a
deep joy in
spite of your
depression. I
pray that you
will give your
burdens to
Christ and share
with those
willing to help
you. He gave us
His church to
grow together
and be ready for
our mission in
this world.
Share Christ and
His forgiveness
of sin.
Choose eternity with Him instead of having your way and then
end-up in hell.
He came to
deliver us from
ourselves, and
the clutches of
Satan, to
transfer us into
his kingdom. Be
ready to go up
anytime and
don’t allow
depression to
defeat you. You
are dearly loved
forever so find
your refuge in
the Savior, to
live and be what
He wants for
you.
I’m Lucie, who cares for you!
May Jesus bless you!
luciekirouac@sogetel.net